p.s.

The brownies were delicious by the way ;)

Waiting for my brownies to be done baking...

So, i'm sitting here watching Muppet Christmas Carol and waiting for my brownies to be done so I can eat their deliciousness, and i decided that it's time to write a blog...
This past week i've discovered how real Spiritual Warfare is. I mean, I've always known there's angels and demons and such but it seems like we forget it a lot. I don't know the exact quote but C.S Lewis wrote about this and said that Satan would rather have us not believe in him at all and not worry about him because that's when he can use us to get to ourselves.
I've always felt that people either forget about Satan or they give him too much credit for our failure. But, now i'm not so sure what I think. I mean, we need to take blame for our own mistakes but sometimes Satan does have a part in it. We definitely need to find a happy medium. Well, i wouldn't call it 'happy' but, you know what I mean ;)
I'm not real comfortable writing down all the details of this experience but, I feel like Satan has had a pull on me this past year. I've had my spiritual ups and downs but definitely more downs this year. I always blamed myself for being so angry and miserable about things but my dad brought to my attention that the things i had been saying to myself didn't make sense at all. I wasn't saying "i'm not good enough for this" I was saying "You're not good enough for this". Now, what on earth? I never really paid attention to it. No, it doesn't make sense that I would talk to myself in second person.
I constantly felt that something was wrong. I could never focus on the good, only the bad. I'm a pretty optimistic person but things had changed and I was down in the dumps ALL the time. Depressed really. And now it's really scary to know that something was talking to me. It's real.

Well, I plan to write more on this subject later but i'm gonna leave it for now. Plus, my brownies are done;)

I know it seems like I've dropped of the face of the earth... but I haven't. Obviously. I've been keeping busy these past couple weeks and i've quite enjoyed them. Right now i'm working on a new blog entry but... It's not ready yet. haha. I just really enjoy keeping you all in suspense! jk jk. :)
Well i hope y'all are doing alright!

In His Grip!

-betty

Music Videos

I haven't been watching much t.v. lately. I watch what we record on our DVR but I usually don't just sit and flip through the channels but every once in awhile I turn on Vh1 to watch the Top 20 video countdown thing, and i noticed a very strange theme this week.
The videos used to be all about "he dumped me and now i'm gonna go party and have a better time without him" type ordeal. And that got quite boring so, I didn't watch it for a long time. Just not my cup of tea.
BUT probably 18 out of 20 of the this week were all about life and how you should enjoy it in the moment, and how you can't take back your mistakes and you should just move on. I was actually quite surprised that most of the videos had some sort of car accident in them. Honestly, i don't remember who's videos were who's. But it's still very interesting.
I don't know how deep these artists were trying to be but I kept getting the feeling that people are feeling the need to live for a higher purpose (God) but they just can't figure out what it is. We all need to be good people, we can't take back our actions, and we need to move on. I kinda feel sorry for these people. I mean, they are rich and have everything at their fingertips but they're longing for more. They just don't know it's Jesus.
I don't know if any of this makes sense 'cause i'm kinda scatter-brained right now. haha. I might bring back this topic later.
i love you all!

Illinois

Well,

On October the 22nd, 2 weeks and 1 day from now, I will be arriving in Charleston Illinois. Yes. I shall be moving there. I'm going all by myself and i'm quite excited. Nervous, but excited! I love it here in Georgia but right now i'm wayyyy too comfy! I just really need to get out of this comfort zone and do something worth while. Why Charleston??? Not really sure but hey! might as well try it!
I'm going to be working, selling my "monsters" and i already have some churches that I can play at (shows and leading worship and such). Life is going to get pretty interesting soon! I don't know if i'm gonna be able to stand living by myself. What am I gonna do with only one persons dishes to do??? And the cleaning??? oh my goodness! Only picking up after ONE person??? This is going to be a strange adventure indeed!
I was going to write more about this whole shenanigan but it's quite late and my brain is shutting down so... I shall finish this another time!

In His Grip!

-betty

Bananagram

Just the other day I learned how to play this game called "Bananagram". I have no idea how many people know about this game, but my life is forever changed. haha.
It's kinda like Scrabble (for those of you who didn't know) and it has challenged me to use all the words I know. Unfortunately, that is why I keep losing. Apparently, I don't know a plethora of words. I know "plethora" just because I watched "The Three Amigos". So, from now on, I will be looking up new words in my spare time. Hopefully I learn how to use them in every day life rather than just Bananagram.
Moving right along... Banana. It's just such a strange word to spell. I'm never really sure when to stop with the 'na's. Like, B-A-N-A-N-A-N-A-N-A banananana. dang. It could just go on forever. (I enjoy watching Demitri Martin by the way)
I'm pretty stoked about this whole 'blogging' thing 'cause it's another fantastic way to enhance my vocabulary skills. :)
Well, I must go kick my brothers butt in another round of bananagram.
I bid you tootles!

-a good day to be stranded

Ooooh!

Well hello everyone!

This is my new blog and more than likely, the entry's will be completely random. But I guess that's how I roll. haha.
Well, I hope to write something as soon as I find an intriguing topic. :)